`memories`

26May2009.........

Yesterday nite,i didnt really sleep well because i think back the incident
that happened to me two years back.....u people sure curious wat kind of
incident...where it happen?how n so on......actually i met in an accident two years back.....i still remembered that i bang a car when im goin to my tuition class....if tat time my bf can fetch me this wouldnt had happen....anyway i cant blame others cos is my own mistake......im careless tat time.....)=

So.....after my accident i was so scare....n have no guts to drive.....although i do drive sumtimes but i still scare cos scare might involve in accident again.....my accident is nt a normal accident....accident tat cos my car to b kemek....i felt sorry to my parents....for makin their car like tat....especially my mum...cos tat car is my mum`s car....and years after years i tought the accident is settle....
but im wrong....the owner of the car tat i bang,sue me.....and i might need to go to the court......this issue make me so worried......i need to go to the court next month,....n i am really very very scare.....
how if i need to go to the jail.....for god sake....y tat uncle wanna sue me....settle d juz let it pass la....
cant b blame tat human are money face....anythin tat makes human get reward such as money they will do it....haixxx....till nw i cant really drive wit a heart tat free of everythin because of this case tat being sue.....will i survive?!?or will i b in jail?!?can anyone tell me wat should i do....i dowan to c tat uncle again....his face really like b******.......he almost wack me if there is no police.....i hate him.....
and the lawyer tat suppose to help me....no use at all....almost1year d he still cant settle the case for me.....wat kind of lawyer is tat?!?lousy betul....
advice for those tat gonna bcome lawyer.....if u cant help ppl plz don ever promise ppl tat u`ll settle the case.....arghhhhh.....

Although my ex did accompany me during the whole during of the accident....but i realised tat everythin is so fake when i think back....he said he care n love me...but everythin is a lie.....it is a lie.....i tought i can b wit him happily...but he is acting in front of me......
the other day i was chattin wit him in facebook cos all of sudden he added me.....
everyone curiousity is very high....so do i.....therefore i asked him y he added me.....n he said for friendship.....after all the lying...n the amount he hurt me n he said is for friendship?!?wat kind of friendship?friendship tat full of betrayal n lies.......i really don understand....but i guess he wanna show me how loving he is wit his gf.....before he being together wit this gal....he used to call me n talk nonsense.....saying hw much he miss me ....how much he love me....everythin a lie.....i didnt accept tat cos i hate him tat time for lying to me all the time....hw can a person change so fast.....if he really love a gal.....c...is a lie again.....ok...back to the facebook chatting....so he replied saying tat i think too much.....cos i said he added me juz to show off.....

I will never forget the excuse he gave me to break up......b4 we break up....he were saying "If I get into university,we will b together.....If I don `t get it,we break up"......after he said tat i feel so sad.....although the time we r together nt long...onli1year plus....but the love n the things i do are for real....n he treat me like tat.....wat an excuse....he were saying im a princess.....do a princess sacrify so much.....do a princess do anythin juz to make a normal guy happy?if im a princess i wouldnt have done so much....better still i stay at my castle n do watever i like.....he is poor i dont mind...but did he put me in his heart.....he said he wanna focus on study...so i let him do so but after exam still the same....when we r together he didnt even buy me a proper gift.....he gave me a piece of paper as my birthday present.....did i said a word.....i didnt....n he said tat im no good.....

My fren told me tat he is not a good person....but i don believe.....cos i didnt c it wit my own eyes....but nw i believe it....he used to talk bad bout me in his scool.....i did asked him but he deny.....n he did flirt wit other gals....he think i do not know but act i noe i juz kept quiet.....he act until he is very innocent....like i always bully him....act he is the one tat betray n lie to me....worst thing is after being together for a year plus we didnt really celebrate valentine,my birthday,his birthday,anniversary together....never before....being together for so long....we only watched2movies together in the cinema...juz2.....n he call me no even for than10times for the whole year we r together....if other gals....long time break up d.....n another excuse he gave me was.....he said tat got ppl like me....but it was after so long we break up.....
n now he being so happy wit his gf....buyin couple ring,couple t-shirt....n drive her to so many places....for me....nothing....n he scolded me bad words in facebook.....donno how many gals he will lie to them....anyway i don care now cos i have a bf tat love me alot now...
and im happy for tat....although he might b stubborn and bad temper sumtimes....but i know he love me for real.....
n i feel so blissful to have him by my side all the time.....
jus tat my mum don really like him....nt to say hate...juz cant accept him at the moment cos scare he might lie to me as well....but my mum likes my ex.....his look can cheat so many ppl.....but my mum don`t know hw bad he is.....
hopefully everythin will b fine......
thanks to my parents.....for being there for me during my accident.....
and also thanks to my dear.....
tat always by my side....

I LOVE YOU DEAR.......

thanks for everythin(=
i appreciate tat......

-EnDz-