`memories`

06 April 2010.......

hm.....its been so long since i update my blog again.....the reason of less post is because:
1)hp spoil so no photo
2)lazy
3)busy
4).....
5)and the list go on......

i been thinking......did i make the correct decision of choosing the guy i am with now?or izit the wrong decision....
sometimes i felt that he is nt the guy i wan....
but sometimes i felt that i really need this guy in my life...
i donno my decision is right or nt...
choosing the right guy is really really very hard.....
need to consider hw ppl look at the person u choose
need to worried bout so many things to jz make ppl please wit him..
i really donno wat i am doin is rite....
most of the time the problem is from other ppl...
i always worried hw ppl look at him....
i worried ppl don like him....
but the fact is ME....whether i love him or nt....nt others...
but others opinion do bother me....really alot.....
i did talked to him about all the issue i worried bout..
but he seems no reaction....
he only said "the one that matter the most is U"....is U not others to like me"...sometimes this words are nt useful....cos others didnt convince me tat he is good.....
haixxx....
i have the thought of giving up....but giving up at this point will it be too late...or is the right time....i cant make the decision....im really lost.....lost in the sense that i donno wat to do.....i want to please him and also others.....but i donno hw....am i being too stupid...one of the bad things bout me is i think bout others more than myself....this make me suffer.....cos i tends to love others more than myself.....T.T
hm.....what shud i do?
GOD plz giv me direction.....i had lost my way.....i want to get back to my own way......
i think i shud not think so much...give him a chance for nw.....if it doesnt turn well i might think of giving up this relationship.....


Sorrow me,
~VeRnz~


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